So in Meridian I found myself the mom of two active little boys, 14 months a part. A military pilot’s wife and it is when I officially left the Catholic Church. This was big for me! Growing up my father was my Sunday School instructor, we were in Church every Sunday, and people use to kid that my dad thought he was the Pope and my mom was like a nun! She said her rosary daily, almost until the day she died, and if something big was going on in your life she would not hesitate to pull out a Novena. For those of you who are not Catholic or a recovering Catholic like myself, a Novena is basically a thirty day prayer, but it is intense. So leaving the church was hard for me. However, we found the most amazing Church in Meridian. Northpointe Presbyterian Church. What an amazing church and what an amazing community.
Bob Bates was our Pastor and he and his sweet wife, Julie, along with all the amazing members welcomed our little family with open arms. I have so many amazing memories there, but here is one memory that has stuck with me. Being Catholic, I was not raised to pray from the heart, we did not do bible studies, we did not memorize scripture. I actually memorized prayers, which I say to this day, and I am not knocking my faith, it was just different. I remember being in a Bible Study at the church and the story of the rainbow and Noah’s ark came up. As God as my witness I never really grasped that the rainbow was a sign from God and a promise!!!! Now I am not blaming my Catholic upbringing or dogging it, but I am saying it was in that very moment I knew I had a lot of catching up to do! (Still do!) It was in that moment I knew I wanted to go deeper and get to know the bible! It was in that moment I chose to grow in my faith. Like I said, not bagging on my past, but for me this was a pivotal time and one I will forever be grateful for and it was because of that amazing community at Northpointe that I truly started to grow in my faith. Which now I know came at just the right time!!!!!
We were in Meridian from 2002 until 2005 when we moved back to Dallas. That was a little traumatic for us. Trey got out of the military and honestly I don’t think the military does a good job at helping you transition for military life to civilian life. It is quite a change and it is hard on marriages and families. Really hard. When we got back to Dallas I tried desperately to go back to how life was before I left here. I went back to work, tried rekindling relationships with friends I had before I left, and tried to go back to the Catholic Church. All of this made me miserable. Everything had changed and I HAD CHANGED!!!!! It had been five years and nothing was the same. Trey was struggling because he was working for Southwest AND flying for the reserves out of Fort Worth, so two jobs, and an angry wife. That was not a pretty time. It was actually one of our darkest times, but we fought like mad to not give up! Why? Because we were growing in our faith and we fought for that.
It is not easy when your marriage is out of sorts, you are feeling disconnected, and you have no church family. I seriously wonder how people do it with out a church home and a church family? Seriously!!!! We were a mess and desperately trying to find a church home. I am proud to say we FINALLY found a church one as that was so hard with so many choices here in Dallas! North Park Presbyterian was were we settled and yet again it was right where God wanted us. Our amazing pastor, Pastor Rich, truly was a life line for Trey and I. Through his counsel and yet again the amazing members, we made it through that terrible time and we made it through all the more stronger; which helped us to settle into life in the big city of Dallas, Texas!
So as I look back on my thirties I see a gal who grew to be a strong, faith driven woman. A woman who learned to not give up in scary and unsettling times. A woman who learned to be independent when her husband was called to war. A woman who had to learn to adapt to new environments and learned one of the most important ingredients to a new place is a church home. A woman who does not give up or settle on a church home either! She turns over every stone until she knows she is in the right place. Most importantly, I see a woman who fights for her marriage and for her family whom she loves desperately and will go to the ends earth fighting for AND I see a woman who is worthy! That is what I see.
Until Next Time,
XO,
Amy