You were strong when you didn’t want to be.
You held your breath and held your home together.
You said yes when your heart whispered no.
You laughed with a monkey on your back—
carrying expectations, pressure, peacekeeping,
and responsibilities no one else saw.
And somehow… you still smiled.
But inside, you were breaking.
You didn’t think you were allowed to put the load down.
To say this is too heavy.
To let go of the lies.
To stop hustling for love.
To finally whisper: I can’t carry this anymore.
But then something shifted.
You stopped trying to hold everything by yourself.
You started coming to the One who actually could.
Slowly… quietly… God began lifting the weight.
And without even realizing it,
you became someone new.
The girl who once broke herself to stay loved?
She’s gone.
Now, you know your worth.
Now, you breathe before you react.
Now, you trust the Shepherd
more than the spotlight,
the schedule,
or the approval.
And yes—life may still get messy.
People may still be people.
Drama may still swirl like dust in the wind.
But guess what?
God keeps fulfilling His promises—
even through the dust, even through the noise,
even through the moments you wish were different.
(Genesis 30:30-ish, paraphrased)
So no, Little Girl…
you’re not that girl anymore.
You’re not shrinking.
You’re not striving.
You’re not hustling to be enough.
You’re standing in love.
You’re walking in healing.
You’re letting the monkeys fall off one by one.
And you’re doing it beautifully.
A Prayer for the One Who’s Finally Letting Go
Jesus,
Thank You for carrying what I never should have tried to hold alone.
Thank You for seeing me when I was smiling on the outside
but breaking on the inside.
For staying near when I was buried under pressure, pain, and pretending.
For whispering, You don’t have to prove anything to be loved.
Help me keep shedding the old stories—
the ones that told me I had to hustle to matter,
be perfect to be accepted,
or carry it all to stay safe.
Make me into the woman You created me to be:
the one who trusts You more than the noise,
the one who chooses rest over performance,
the one who lets You lift the weight.
And when life feels messy or dramatic,
remind me that You still fulfill Your promises.
You still see me.
You still choose me.
And I never have to carry anything alone again.
Amen.
