May Day, May Day!
My May Baby!
Does anyone else hate May as much as I do? I really feel bad saying this, but it is true! And I really hate saying it because my little man/child was born in May, but the chaos that the end of the school year brings is about to get on my last dang nerve!
I honestly think before kids May was not a big deal, but I can't remember! Heck I can't remember names and lunch dates right now let alone the past! Seriously! Ask my friend Iliana! I stood her up! And anything with numbers! FORGET IT! Just last week I was doing my volunteer shift at Graeme's school in the cafeteria and Ms. Tonia told me 5 nuggets per tray for the older kids. I literally could not wrap my head around 5 nuggets on the tray! The chicken nuggets would be lying there in their spot and I could not figure out is that five or four nuggets! I am not lying yall! It is terrible! May is wreaking havoc on my brain and on my life! Anyone else feel this way?
The Amazing Ms. Tonia!
Overwhelmed by May!
I wish I could say today's post was some miracle solution as to what to do with the problem. It is not! I don't have one, I need one, but I don't have one. Today's post is more of a therapeutic post for myself if I am being honest. A post to remind me to take a deep breath. Get present in this moment and ask myself what is important this very second! Sometimes I just have to go at my day second by second and take er easy!
So if you are anything like me this May and you are feeling overwhelmed, try to remember being overwhelmed steals our joy. It is true. And again I am saying this for myself. I have noticed that these past couple of weeks my joy is lacking and I don't like that. I don't like the feeling of frustration and stress that has overtaken my soul. So what am I going to do about it?
I am admitting it is happening. Acknowledging there is a problem is the first step to recovery or freedom in anything.
I am going to start and end each day with a thankful heart. I am going to write down at least one, preferably three things I am thankful for each night and re-read it first thing the next morning. If this works I will be carrying it over into life for real!
I am going to get perspective. My hope is by being thankful I will be subconsciously gaining perspective. I will be living in the present, relishing in the regular and ordinary beautiful gift I have been given. The gift of today.
I am going to forget my fears of missing out or not being included. This is a colossal waste of time and only brings anxiety, fear, and hurt into my heart and mind.
Lastly I shall look up.
“Set your mind on things above”
So as I navigate my way through May I will look back on this post daily and remember I need to remain in the present and be thankful so that I do not allow all the negative mess that comes with the rat race to roll over on to my kids. Because after all I have been given the precious gift of being their mom with one sole purpose. To love them like no one else but their father in heaven can. Unconditionally, without any strings or expectations.
Until next time!
XO,
Amy
